I’m not telling any of you anything you don’t know. Autism is lonely at times. Lots of times. Not just for the parent who may feel no one can really understand what their life is like, but also as a family. While others may be talking about their wonderful vacations, autism families may just be hoping for a night of sleep or being able to eat out as a family. Some days, autism is just tough.
I remember the isolation. I was so happy for my friends when they got to take their kids places, but …. I’ll admit…. I was jealous at times. And I hated that Mandy was missing out on those same things. They never stayed in a hotel until they were 6, 7 and 10. It simply wasn’t possible. Rob and Casey were unable to sleep at home, let alone a strange place. And their noises were impossible to quiet. It was safer to stay home.
In 2002, we took them to the Smoky Mountains and to the beach in North Carolina. By then, their behaviors were calmer and they were both less likely to dart away. We didn’t stay away from home long, but it was an amazing trip for all of us. We even went back to the Smoky Mountains a few years later. (While they love the beach, the mountains are even more calming to Casey and Rob).
But, in our every day lives, we were isolated. We didn’t go to movies. We didn’t go out to eat very often – and never somewhere that would take long to get our food. When the kids were older, we added a backyard pool and always had friends over. Those were the best times! I still felt lonely, at times, though. It’s hard to describe what our lives were like to others. And, honestly, I didn’t want to try. Back then, I was embarrassed by some parts of autism. Now, I just don’t care. If someone doesn’t like us, they are welcome to stay away. 🙂
The loneliness is a big reason I would encourage each of you to find a support group. I helped organize one in our area many years ago and stopped going for a long time. Last year, we started another one and it’s growing. It feels so good for even experienced parents like me to be around other parents – both experienced and new – and just know that I’m not alone in this walk with autism.
It helps to hear others’ ideas for things to try with Casey and Rob. Sometimes, you can’t see new ideas because you are too close. Outsiders can think more clearly about the situation.
The best part, though, is we plan activities for special needs families. We had a race car visit us and a fire truck came another night. Today, we had a trunk and treat for special needs families. To let Casey and Rob walk around and be themselves is just the most amazing feeling! Everyone knows them and everyone keeps an eye on each other. It’s a wonderful feeling to be part of a huge group that loves and accepts Casey and Rob just as they are.
If there isn’t an autism support group in your area, start one. You can advertise on Facebook or in school newsletters. You may not have a huge turnout, at first, but keep trying. Even if you just become friends with one other autism parent, that’s one more friend for you. The main goal for our group is that no one feels lonely and it’s a goal that we take very seriously. Find a group. Find support. You will all be better off for it.