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Autism and an Awesome Birthday

Yesterday, Rob turned 28. While Casey has been talking about his birthday for a month, he rarely mentions it. He likes his birthday, but it doesn’t mean as much to him as it does Casey and me. I want their birthdays to always be something special. This year, Rob surprised me.

He got up early on his birthday! He had a big smile when he came out of his room. I’d like to think he was happy to see me, but I know that it was for his favorite chocolate covered doughnuts that we always have on birthdays. 🙂 I sang “Happy Birthday” to him, but he turned his back and ran for his room as soon as I was finished. (I didn’t think I sounded that bad! 🙂 )

We had talked about his birthday all week – how old he was, what he wanted for presents. He would repeat that he was going to be 28, but he didn’t care. As for presents, he just repeated what I suggested. He showed no interest at all, except for wanting Long John Silver for supper. He never asks for that except on his birthday. Unfortunately, the one in our town burned last year after his birthday and never reopened. The closest one is about 30 miles away.

All week, I thought maybe I could convince him to have KFC or Taco Bell for supper instead. Finally, Wednesday evening, I told him LJS was closed and asked if we could have something else instead. The look on his face broke my heart. He was so disappointed that he wouldn’t be having fish for supper – he was close to tears. I couldn’t stand it. I told him I would go get his LJS while he was with Bob on his birthday. (When I was in that town a few weeks ago, the dining room wasn’t open, so I knew we needed the drive-thru anyway). So, yeah – I drove almost 70 miles to get their supper last night. But – he was so happy! His smiles and giggles made it all worth it.

He bought playing cards when he was with Bob so as soon as he finished supper, he went to his room to rip them up and wait for Mandy and Cory, Grandma and Grandpa. Since he still had cards when they got here, he didn’t come right out and see everyone, but when I mentioned presents, it brought Casey running and convinced him to see what he had gotten.

He makes very few comments and rarely changes facial expressions when he is opening presents. He reads his cards and rips open the paper. He read the new signs he got and said “money” when it fell out of his card. As soon as he was finished, he grabbed the new decks of cards and ran back to his room to resume the ripping, until I asked him to come and blow out candles.

He did have a small smile on his face as I lit a few candles for him and he loudly sang Happy Birthday to himself before he blew them all out. And ran to his room again.

But that’s okay. Birthdays can be overwhelming for anyone, but when you have sensory issues, they can be even harder. The extra noise – extra people – the extra attention are all hard to handle. I’ve never made any of my kids stay in the room for their parties. They are free to do what they need to do to enjoy their day.

I’ve also never understood the reasoning for buying what you think they “should” like. As an adult, Rob should probably be thinking about a new phone, or clothes, or gift cards, or something for his car. But as Rob, a young man with autism, he wants signs for his room. He wants decks of cards to rip up. He wants foam stickers to put on his closet door. He wants foam puzzles to cut up. He wants money for more signs (tho we are really running out of room in there!). And so that what we get him. We don’t try to force “normal” things – they get what they like.

So while his day might not seem like much to most people, he had his favorite doughnut for breakfast, wore a favorite shirt to Hopewell, had taco meat in his lunch, went with Bob, had LJS for supper, saw Mandy and Cory and Grandma and Grandpa, opened presents, sang to himself, had cookies and ripped cards for more than 5 hours. It was a perfect day to him and that’s all I ever want – a special time just for them.

I encourage you to think before you plan parties for your children with autism. Be realistic – are you planning the party for them – or for you? Are they the ones who want a huge crowd with lots of balloons – or is it you? Trying to compete with your neighbors? Please – do what’s best for your child on their birthday and leave the huge party for yours!

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Autism and the Excitement of Christmas

Autism and the Excitement of Christmas

This time of year can be especially difficult for families with autism.  So many people with autism rely on schedules to function each day and the holiday season with all of the extra activities can throw anyone into a meltdown.  (Even a few “normal” people!  🙂 )   Casey used to have a really hard time each December, but now, she’s just excited about everything.  Rob takes it all in stride – he’s pretty mellow about things, but his anxiety can be higher when he doesn’t get enough downtime.

We started our season a few weeks ago by going to our town’s Christmas parade.  It had been several years since we went to one as the kids are usually at camp that night.  Casey was beyond excited – she was going to see Santa on a fire truck and couldn’t stop giggling about that.  Rob was happy to go because Casey was happy and Mandy and Cory were coming!

He even put a hat and gloves on (mostly because Casey did!) and sat quietly under a blanket while we waited.  He did let out one yell, but when Cory reminded him he was hurting ears, he settled down again.  He was happy to sit and watch all of the lights – until one of the trucks pulling a float blew an air horn!  He jumped a foot and covered his ears as tightly as he could.  It has been years since I’ve seen him affected so strongly by a noise (I’m wondering if the ear problems he has had this year could have contributed to him being more sensitive to sounds) and I felt terrible.

Rob tensed up every time a truck came near us.  Mandy and I took turns covering his ears for him so he could relax.  Unfortunately, the excitement of seeing Santa was dimmed for him by the realization that there was an entire line of fire trucks coming towards him.  He loves fire trucks, but was so scared about the air horns blowing unexpectedly that he couldn’t really enjoy it.

Casey, however, was almost bouncing in her chair!  Santa was coming!  And he waved to her!  She couldn’t take her eyes off of him and the smile on her face was priceless.  She watched until she couldn’t see him anymore and asked if she could go talk to him soon.  (That’s on our list of fun things to do!)  I told her we would go to the mall and see him.

The day after Thanksgiving, we start decorating for the season.  Boxes were everywhere and Casey couldn’t wait to get her tree up.  I told her she needed to put her laundry away first and she did it in record time.  Their trees were up and stockings hung in their rooms.  They both love going to sleep with the tree lights (pretty and calming!).

We have a list of places we want to visit during the month.  Drive-thru light shows are always a great way to spend an evening (Never have to worry about the weather, crowds or anxiety!) and I’ve found a few new ones that we’re hoping to make it to this year.   Several of the zoos in the state do extensive light decorations, too, so that’s another option.  Casey just can’t wait for all of it!  She is constantly bringing me her calendar to ask for specific dates for activities.  It’s hard for her to understand that the weather is a factor and some things can’t be planned too far in advance.

One of the decorations that make our home special is the picture with this post.  Look carefully and see that Baby Jesus is being guarded by a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle.  Rob got this turtle years ago in a McDonald’s Happy Meal and insisted that the turtle watch over the baby.  Every year, he looks for the turtle and places him near the baby in one of our nativity sets.  Rob kneels down and makes sure the turtle is in just the right place and that’s where it sits until I pack away the set for the year.  Rob checks each time he walks through the room to be sure the baby is still being guarded.

We stick with family gatherings and are so lucky that our family understands that Casey is deadly serious during the parties until the checklist in her head is complete.  First, you have to eat, then open presents, the take a family picture, then play games.  And when the games are played, she can smile and laugh because she is happy that everything was done and was just like the year before.  Rob joins in for parts of the party, but he also escapes upstairs to a dark, quiet room when he needs to.

I have a lot of ideas in my head of things I want to do during the Christmas season.  At times, it’s hard to balance what I know Casey would love with what Rob would enjoy.  She went to see The Nutcracker last week (my niece dances in it every year) while Rob stayed with me.  She wants to see Santa, while he probably could care less.  (She firmly believes in Santa – Rob will believe because she does, but I’m not sure he truly does.  He just won’t ruin it for her.  Empathy at it’s finest!)  She wants to make crafts and he might join in for a little while, but it doesn’t really interest him.

She wants to bake cookies.  He doesn’t care for them.  They both like to shop for presents for others – he tends to be more serious in his choices.  She knows who she wants to buy for and will grab anything at times so she can be done and look for things for herself.  They both love to wrap their gifts and watch people open them.

It’s also hard to balance what I want to do with what is best for them.  We can’t do too much in the evenings that may disrupt their night schedule or they may not sleep.  Long days away from home make it hard for Rob to relax when he gets home, so how far we can travel is a big factor in what we do.  You will have to try to balance what you want to do with what is best for your little one.  Even if they enjoy the activity you plan, will they be over-stimulated to the point that anxiety gets too high?  Will they be able to calm down when you get home?  It’s exhausting to try to think about all of the “what-ifs” when you plan something new!

While it may seem easier to just stay home, what if you tried and it went perfectly?  What if everyone has fun and you create memories that you never thought you would have?  You have to give your child a chance to be successful – even as you dread the possible meltdowns or stares from other people.  You will never know until you try!  Take those baby steps and venture out!  I know Casey and Rob are constantly surprising me with what they are able (and want!) to do now!

Start your own traditions for the season.  Your ideas may seem odd to others, but who cares?  They are for your family – your children.  Take drives to look at lights.  Make some gifts.  Bake.  Decorate as you need to.  Buy the comfy clothes your child needs to enjoy a party.   Try to relax and enjoy special events.  Find a babysitter (yeah – not easy, I know!) and leave your little one at home if you truly know they won’t enjoy what you are going to do.  (Let go of that guilt, too!)

I hope your holiday season is full of excitement, fun, love and laughs!

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Family Dinners and an Autism Mom Worries

Autism Worries

In a few hours, my family, plus my brother’s in-laws, will be gathering to celebrate the birthdays of my two beautiful nieces, Lacey and Anna.  I want to go.  I want to see everyone and I want to have fun.  But, as an autism mom, family dinners are something to be enjoyed – and worried about.

In my head, I know it’s silly to even worry about it.  I know that everyone who will be there loves and understands Casey and Rob.  I know everyone will help me watch them (the party is at a campground and close to a river).  I know that Casey is so excited about celebrating their birthdays she can’t stop giggling about it.  (Casey loves birthdays and firmly believes everyone’s birthday needs to have cake, presents and balloons – whether the birthday person wants them or not.)

Rob isn’t as excited about going.  He’ll go and he’ll be excited to see Uncle Jeff and Grandpa Mack.  But he probably won’t enjoy it like Casey will.  He will be in a strange place, with people he doesn’t know well.  If the campground is busy, there will be lots of strangers around.  He won’t want to eat anything and he won’t want to sit for long.

So, autism mom’s head is racing with crazy thoughts.  Should I take his iPad, even without WiFi?  Don’t forget his spinners and his fidget cube.  Don’t forget chairs.  Will he yell when he is stressed?  Will she try to eat before it’s time?  Will she grab at people’s shoes to see their socks?  Don’t forget their birthday cards.  Maybe I should have asked Tracie to go, just to have someone else.

What’s the weather going to do?  The crazy storms of the last few days have not been good to him.  (and the fact he is STILL asking for the van!)  Will Casey be careful on the playground with smaller children running around?  And on and on and on.   Anyone with a child with autism knows exactly how I’m feeling.  I want to go to the party.  Everyone loves the kids so if they do have issues, it won’t be any big deal.  I want to see everyone and I want to relax.

But… there’s always a “but” isn’t there?  Sometimes, it just seems like too much work to go new places.  I know they need to do it – I know they will probably be fine.  And I know I get so tired of worrying about it.  Sometimes, autism is not my friend.  Sometimes, I just want to toss chairs in the car, grab birthday cards and go.  Especially to a family function – what easier place is there to go than with people who love you?

No place, but sometimes, it’s still hard.  I’m lucky –  my family has always been supportive of the kids.  I’ve never had to deal with family members who say autism isn’t real or that if I spanked them enough, the autism would disappear.  I’ve heard stories from other families.  It’s insane, but true.

If Rob yells, others will help him calm down.  It won’t have to be me.  But I feel guilty and autism guilt sucks worse than plain mom guilt.  If Casey grabs at socks, she will be reminded she needs to ask first.  I may not remind her, but someone will.  They are both loved.

We could stay home tonight.  I could just put my comfy clothes on, pick up my book and kick back.  I could tell Casey the party was canceled.  If I write cancel on her calendar, she’ll be ok with it.  The sky is getting cloudy.  Rob is a little loud.  We’ll just stay home.

But – I miss my brother and want to celebrate with my nieces.  I don’t want autism to rule our lives.  So, we’ll go.  And Casey will grab socks and sneak food.  Rob will rock and squeal.  I’ll sit close and try to relax.  Jeff will tell me to chill out.

Decisions like this may sound silly to anyone who doesn’t have a child with autism, but they are all too real to our family.  Staying home isn’t fair to Casey, but Rob may not enjoy it.  Every day, little decisions that other families make without a thought are major decisions.  Whether to go.  What to eat.  Whether to attempt a trip to the store.  Believe me, I understand your thoughts.

So here is my advice.  Go.  Take whatever you think you may need and ignore people who say you are coddling to your child.  Do what you need.  Take food they like – if the hostess doesn’t like it, too bad.  Take their fidgets.  Take their headphones, security blankets and whatever else they need.  Don’t let what might happen keep you from experiencing life beyond your home.

Really – what’s the worse that can happen?  A meltdown?  Been there, done that – and you know what?  I’m still here.  The kids are still here.  They are happy.  We all survived.  I may have had a crying meltdown when we got home, but no one had to deal with that but me.  Meltdowns may never go away – mine or theirs!

So grab your supports.  Take a deep breath and go.  Experience the world and help your child do the same.  If it doesn’t go well, have a cry and move on.  I need to go pack a big bag of tricks – we’ve got a birthday party to go to!